And the countdown continues....
2 months and I'm off and I have to say I couldn't be more ready. Now am i packed? No, not really but this dragging it out thing is killing me.
Coming back from Honduras was harder than I thought and I'm ready to leave again. Stuff just isn't as important anymore. Or at least I tell myself that as I try to gear up for packing to go to Togo. My goal is to keep it under 50lbs but I'm afraid its gonna be 80, most of that I think is book weight.
They say there are plenty of books at the Peace Corps library but can there be such a thing as too many books? As I get ready to enter the land of create your own entertainment I have to be prepared to go without cable (a luxury I even managed at times to have in Honduras) and infrequent at best times without the Internet. So what does that leave? Books and as long as I have plenty of books and my ipod I will be a happy person.
I can't say Im not nervous about going. Dealing with stomach demons both in Honduras and since returning makes me nervous about the bathroom situation in Togo, which I have to say does not sound promising, and I have a feeling stomach demons will be plaguing the next 2 years of my life. But I figure I'll adapt.
Everyone is moving forward with their lives and I just feel stuck. I just keep telling myself that in 2 months I'll be moving forward. Although in a sense my life here in America will be stuck on pause. I'll leave thinking things are a certain way and when I come back I'm pretty sure nothing will be the same including myself. I think that makes me more nervous than anything, the uncertainty at the end.
But ready or not here I come and it can't get here fast enough.
As a side note I'd like to add not having a cell phone has been one of the most liberating experiences so for those of you brave enough to do it I strongly encourage it.
